Sorry to read regarding your illness. I hope you’re doing better. When you left the home after a long time did you ever feel anxious? This happened to me. It was the worst thing I could have inflicted on myself but of course if I was ill then I’d have no choice. I think if I do get ill and old, I’ll have to en sure I communicate with people via phone if I can’t leave the house. I seem to need “training” to interact with people in a spontaneous manner. Totally different to when I’m typing online!
Yes it was very difficult but then again I had originally had difficulty with it as a small child too. I can put on a performance when I have enough energy, that person is a character I learned to play when I was a teenager. Very entertaining girl lol. The insecurities that used to accompany my social reluctance are gone now, I am over 60 and it is far more comfortable being me these days than it used to be but i find myself still wanting to hide in my hole. I am as well as anyone who was told they were going to die in 1998 can be, which is very from my point of view but not hardly from a healthy persons perspective ... thanks for asking. My mechanism for quelling the internal panic was (and is) to continually repeat I REPENT OF FEAR over and over inside my head till miraculously my calm returns.
Sounds like you really got a grip of something you’ve recognised your whole life and learned to manage and live with it. I use different techniques to you but I can relate to this. Good for you- this is what life is. It’s suffering but there’s also the knack of learning to manage suffering. With age also comes wisdom. You’re a strong person.
Sorry to hear, Pallavi 🙏
There are times when I have not left the house for months
some of that was due to illness but just as much of it was people fatigue
Sorry to read regarding your illness. I hope you’re doing better. When you left the home after a long time did you ever feel anxious? This happened to me. It was the worst thing I could have inflicted on myself but of course if I was ill then I’d have no choice. I think if I do get ill and old, I’ll have to en sure I communicate with people via phone if I can’t leave the house. I seem to need “training” to interact with people in a spontaneous manner. Totally different to when I’m typing online!
Yes it was very difficult but then again I had originally had difficulty with it as a small child too. I can put on a performance when I have enough energy, that person is a character I learned to play when I was a teenager. Very entertaining girl lol. The insecurities that used to accompany my social reluctance are gone now, I am over 60 and it is far more comfortable being me these days than it used to be but i find myself still wanting to hide in my hole. I am as well as anyone who was told they were going to die in 1998 can be, which is very from my point of view but not hardly from a healthy persons perspective ... thanks for asking. My mechanism for quelling the internal panic was (and is) to continually repeat I REPENT OF FEAR over and over inside my head till miraculously my calm returns.
Sounds like you really got a grip of something you’ve recognised your whole life and learned to manage and live with it. I use different techniques to you but I can relate to this. Good for you- this is what life is. It’s suffering but there’s also the knack of learning to manage suffering. With age also comes wisdom. You’re a strong person.
xoxoxox
Right back at ya 🙏❤️