When you’re smiling..

Then the whole world smiles with you..

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So sang Louis Armstrong in his inimitable voice. Fun fact -my father in law always liked his singing and my mum in law arranged for a recording of Armstrong’s Wonderful World to be played at his funeral..

There is a merit to an online community or simply a gathering of like minded voices. You don’t have to agree on everything but they raise a few points I think of myself.

Candid With Lubna talks about people not liking your content. Yes, I have experienced the same. They will comment on my posts but there is no like. I think the lack of engagement from my near 400 subscribers on Substack is due to various reasons and I don’t tend to think negatively over this. After all, quality matters more than quantity.

I just wonder if there tends to be a pettiness in some whereas for myself, I will like someone’s post or content, even if I do not agree with everything they say. Sometimes as well I’d like to leave a comment more on other people’s work but I have to be careful about attracting negative attention. I have stopped counting the comments warning me of my imminent deportation..

When I am smiling over other things, then I smile over this also. Humans are so funny even when they are being petty and immature.

I like rainy days. It keeps people inside their homes. When it’s sunny the groups of teens come out, no doubt having soaked up all the browning of the UK content on TikTok. The suspicion towards those who look like me is nothing new and no, I don’t deserve it and do not engage in tit for tat and collective punishment tactics myself. Plus, yes I do remind myself that in India things would be worse.

As a woman, like all women no matter which demographic we belong to, I want to be able to walk outside just enjoying nature without coming across a person that I am not sure about. I am afraid I would be lying if I said that I don’t dread walking outside when the weather gets better given past experiences. With a dog, a twice daily walk is inevitable.

Growing up you just dont imagine this to be your life but everyday I think today is new, it’s fresh. Anyone who doesn’t go through the same experience as you doesn’t get it and so some just shut down. They don’t want to listen and will make excuses rather than accept reality. I’d personally prefer to understand reality.

I’ll keep smiling through and appreciate what I do have. I tend to focus on the bigger picture rather than soaking up the negative energy out there, no matter how much it seems that any human no matter their politics conveys they just don’t want you there.

I’d love to spend a few days on a deserted island..

Thanks for reading.